Everything Always Comes Out In The End

“Lee calm down” I spoke into my phone as I walked down the street heading back to the apartment, I still couldn’t get into the habit of saying mine because technically it wasn’t.

“I’m sorry but come on you two have been on three dates and Ariana and I are very excited” I rolled my eyes at her comment before letting her continue to babble on about whatever it was she wanted to get out of her system.

It was true, I had been on another two dates with Damon since the girls night where they found out about him and so far the guys hadn’t found out about him so I was grateful. It meant I could still tell Spencer about him when I wanted to and felt ready.

I finally managed to get Lee off the phone as I opened the apartment door and I collapsed straight onto the couch, work has been insane. Everyone is working crazy hours and the only reason I left early was because I kept falling asleep while Harvey was trying to talk, he gave up at that point and said I wasn’t exactly useful while I was asleep.

Just as I was about to fall asleep my phone went off alerting me, I made a groan before rolling over and grabbing the phone and a smile appeared at seeing that the message was from Damon but it quickly disappeared.

Are we still on for tonight?

I completely forgot about our date tonight, I felt incredibly bad and I honestly didn’t feel up to much tonight.

I feel like the biggest idiot but I honestly forgot and in all honestly I’m not up for leaving the apartment.

I stared at the screen waiting to see what his reply would be, if he would be fine with a raincheck or pressure me into actually leaving, it would be a defining moment for us.

It’s fine, you told me at the beginning of the week how busy you’ve been. I can always come to you with pizza, I want to see you.

I didn’t reply at first, I sat up and looked around, the place was clean enough but considering everything about this I was unsure of what to do. I did want to see him and the fact that he was offering to come to me with pizza was enough to make my heart jump at the idea.

I ended up saying sure and giving him the address and his reply was wow nice area, god this was going to take some explaining if he asked.

After that I quickly sent Alec a message telling him I had some of the associates over for pizza so we could go over files knowing he wouldn’t turn up or even question if it was a lie or not. I didn’t want to have a repeat of the whole Jeremy incident.

20 minutes later there was a knock on the door, I quickly got up and let Damon in amazed by how good he looked in a casual outfit like jeans and t-shirt. “Mhmm, maybe I should have mentioned a night at home much earlier than this if that’s what you would have worn” Damon spoke as he stepped forward to give me a hug and kiss my cheek and I was grateful I could hide the blush.

I had gotten changed out of my work clothes and just threw on a pair of yoga pants and a loose fitting t-shirt but I did touch up my make-up and throw my hair up into a messy bun.

“I’ll take that as a compliment so thank you, come on I’ll grab us some plates and something to drink” I went to grab the pizza from him but he moved it out of my reach and motioned for me to move first.

I shook my head but led him out of the hallway and into the kitchen and I wasn’t surprised when I heard his footsteps stop, I turned around and found him standing there taking in the open living and kitchen and the big windows that took up one of the living room walls.

“What?” I questioned hoping to pull him back to me, he quickly shook his head before rushing to over where I was standing and placing the pizza on the counter.

“Now I feel like an idiot because I didn’t ask what type of pizza you wanted but I remember how you only ordered chicken when we went out for dinner so I stuck with a chicken pizza” I looked up at him pulling my gaze from the fridge and gave him a smile, I didn’t think he spent much time noticing what I was ordering because most people would have questioned why I never ordered anything apart from chicken.

Most people think I’m weird once I begin to explain that I do not like the taste of red meat, yes sometimes I will eat a burger when I’m drunk or hungover but that is usually where the red meat stops. I usually stick to chicken and turkey but since most places don’t have turkey on their menus unless it’s a lunch menu I’m limited in options, this is also when people say vegetarian options or even seafood but seafood looks weird to me and eating vegetarian foods helps emphasis what people already think, one step away from being a vegetarian.

“Thank you, I can’t believe you remembered that” I grabbed two cans of soda before handing him one and making my way over to take a seat beside him.

“Well it’s kind of hard not to when all you order is chicken, now this apartment” I choked on my drink, he looked at me with worry.

“What about it?” I was finally able to speak and he still looked worried about my reaction.

“This is a really nice apartment in a really nice building in a really nice area”

“You said really nice three times there, what is the point?” I didn’t mean for it to come out like it did, I just didn’t know where he was going with it.

“Nothing, I was just saying. It’s a hell of a lot nicer than mine” he gave me a smile and the tension finally went away and we settled into a comfortable silence while we continued to eat and I couldn’t help but notice the feeling I got every time my leg brushed his and hell there was clothing preventing our skin from touching.

We had finished eating and made our way over to the couch to watch a movie on Netflix and I was leaning against him while he had an arm wrapped around my shoulder, I was happy with this, completely content with how things were going.

“You know I have this ex-girlfriend, we dated in college for a while but she ended up cheating on me with my dorm mate and after I broke up with her she had this idea in her head that I wasn’t happy without her, she ended up making an appearance at every social outing me and my friends had organised” I wanted to look up at him, to read his expression and find out why he was telling me this but I couldn’t, it would ruin the moment but maybe it was already ruined.

“How did you manage to get rid of her?” I questioned figuring it was an appropriate response

“It took some time and a couple of first dates until she finally realised I was happy without her”

I finally pulled away from him and looked at him but he looked calm and he was watching the T.V for a second before he looked at me. “Why are you telling me this?” I questioned and he let out a sigh before shoving his hand through his hair.

“Because everyone comes with baggage and ex’s Dri, I really like you and I really want this to go somewhere but there is a part of me that thinks for that happen I need to know what is so complicated about you”

I pulled away completely and settled in at the other end of the couch to face him, I agreed with him, I wanted this to go somewhere, I was happy with him and things were easy but up until this moment he never asked about my complication that I mentioned back in Boston.

“I can’t tell you everything because everything would involve so much that I’m not ready to tell you but I will tell you what I’m willing to?” he nodded at my question and I was silent for a moment before continuing.

“So long story short we broke up because his company sent him to London for work, most people would stick it out and do the long distance thing but we’ve done it before and it almost ruined us. So this time we decided to break up and see what happens”

“So what you two break up, get laid here and there and then in a week or two when he returns you’ll get back together?” I didn’t like the venom in his voice but I let it go.

“Not exactly, he’s been gone for a couple of months now, he doesn’t know when he is coming back since the couple of times I’ve asked how work is going he just says it’s a mess. If he did come back next week I wouldn’t push you away for him, I want to see where this goes but you have to be warned that he is still there and still around, we have the same friends so he won’t disappear”

“So even though you are I’m assuming in love with another guy you are going to see what happens with me? Is that what you meant by how one of us is going to get hurt in the end?” Damon had gripped my feet and pulled me so I was lying down and he hovered above me.

“Exactly, I wish no one would get hurt and that would be the ideal situation but we don’t always get what we want. I want to try this with you Damon but I want you to be prepared for what could happen in the future”

“Thank you for telling me” Damon spoke softly before leaning to kiss me and I wrapped my arms around his neck and when his lips left mine and trailed down my neck I realised something.

“Wait, there’s one more thing”

“What’s that?” he questioned not removing his lips from my neck and my breathing had increased, and I was slowly losing my focus on the topic at hand.

“This apartment, it isn’t mine, it’s his. I have my own but as for why I’m living here instead, I can’t tell you it’s a part of me I’m not willing to tell you yet” his lips stopped kissing me at the mention of this apartment not being mine and I was worried I let too much out.

“He’s a trust fund kid isn’t he?” was all he said, nothing about what I’m not willing to tell him. I laughed and he lifted his head to look at me and he had a smirk on his face, all I could do was nod because it was the truth, Spencer came from money. Generations’ old money, just think Gossip Girl money and more specifically something between a Chuck Bass and Nate Archibald type money.

“Fucking trust fund kids always get the hot girls” was all said before leaning down and placing his lips back against my neck making me forget about the uneasy feeling about him complaining about trust fund kids…

Going Behind Backs

I've had someone mention the similarities between names of a couple of my characters and someone else agree with them and I was wondering if everyone else was having the same problem. For me it wasn't something I realised until after I started posting since I've got friends with very similar and also having to work with a girl with a name sounding very similar to my own it is something I'm used too. If a lot of people are getting confused with the similar I will be more than happy to fix it and change a couple of the names if needed, so please let me what you think!

My phone was ringing and I ignored it, I knew I was late. I had plans with the girls to go over and have pizza and wine at Emery’s place, I knew they would be taking it in turns to ring me asking where I was but I over slept and was late to work and in turn had to stay late.

I was finally finished getting changed and I quickly grabbed my bag before leaving the apartment and heading down to grab a cab to head over to Sutton’s.

When I finally made it to Sutton’s I wasn’t at all surprised to see that they had already started without me but I pretended to be hurt and pout at them, “couldn’t even wait for me?”

“Well if you had turned up on time, an hour ago, like we organised then yes we would have waited for you” Emery spoke into her glass and I shot her a look, she didn’t really care and if Spencer was here I wouldn’t hear the end of because I knew what they all would have been thinking.

“Sorry, I really am. I was up late last night and over slept and in turn was late to work so I had to stay back to make up for it” I apologised as I walked over and took a seat on the couch while grabbing a slice of pizza and a glass of wine.

“It’s fine, why were you up so late last night anyway?” Belle questioned and I couldn’t help but see the look that Emery and Sutton shared, I was a little scared about what they knew.

“Well if you must know our dear friend Dri here went on a date”

“With a boy she found all on her own”

“We’re very proud of her” Emery and Sutton spoke one after the other and with each sentence I grew more and more shocked and my jaw was wide open.

It was true, I went on that date with Damon last night and it wasn’t originally meant to be a late night but we both lost track of time, but hearing those two talk about it made me wonder how they knew and then I realised who.

“You spoke to Lee!” I shot at them sounding angrier then I thought I was and they both looked guilty.

I had been back from Boston a couple of days shy of two weeks and Damon was the only thing I hadn’t told them about my trip to Boston, I wanted to be the one to tell Spencer this time around when I was ready. I trusted the girls, I truly did but sometimes Sutton would get excited and tell Alex information or Emery would over share something at work and then Spencer finds out.

“Well she rang us to thank us for her birthday present and she then proceeded to ask us if you had spoken to Damon but yet we had no idea who Damon was” I let out a sigh once Sutton finished talking, it was an innocent mistake.

I threw the crust on the plate and rested my hand back placing my hands over my face, I didn’t know what to expect now but it also made me wonder if tonight was all planned for this purpose.

“I think I’m missing something here, Dri why didn’t you want us to know?” I lifted my hands and my head and looked at Belle, she looked a little hurt and confused and I hated that I was making her feel that way.

“It’s not personal Belle, the last time I went on a date someone told Spencer and it then led to the two of us almost having a full blown screaming match on the phone. I wanted to see what happens between Damon and myself before I told you all because I wanted to be the one to tell Spencer”

“How did Spencer find out?”

“Alec told him” Emery replied to Belle before I even had the chance and Belle looked at me with sympathy.

“So don’t let Alec find out this time” Belle spoke and I just wished it was that easy.

“I don’t think it’s that, last time I don’t think Alec understood the agreements that Spencer and I came too but now, I don’t know” I explained, I was still unsure as to what Alec knew but Spencer was something the two of us didn’t like talking about because we both missed him.

“Alec is still Spencer’s best friend Belle, Alec will do everything to make sure he doesn’t get hurt. Alec and Dri might get along but Spencer will always come first”

“Emery is right Belle” I spoke agreeing with Emery but Belle just shrugged before grabbing her glass.

I knew Belle was just trying to be helpful but it’s hard when she’s not always involved in our group, of lately it’s just been Emery, Sutton, Alex, Alec and myself since Spencer isn’t here. Even before Spencer left it was always the six of us doing things and every now and then we would remember to pass the invite to the rest of our friends.

The rest of the night went by with ease and no one mentioned Damon or Spencer again but I knew the truth, I knew Belle wouldn’t ask until a moment he was brought up without so much tension and the girls would continue to bug me constantly in our group chat for the next week until I gave up and gave in some information about him or even organised a meet between the three of them.

Belle had already gotten in a cab to go home for the night and Sutton and I had walked around the corner to the closest Starbucks to sober up and talk. Sutton was the easier to talk to about this whole thing with Spencer since Alex travelled for work every now and then because he worked in PR, mostly with athletes which the other guys enjoyed immensely.

“What is Damon like?” Sutton questioned finally breaking the silence and I couldn’t help the smile that appeared on my face. “Aw you like him” Sutton teased and my face went red.

“Looks or personality?” I questioned

“Start with looks”

“He’s like the complete opposite of Spencer”

“So he’s got paler skin, dark hair and either blue or brown eyes?” Sutton smirked, she knew that Spencer was my type of guy, the sandy blonde hair and green eyes all finished off with a toned body and an olive complexion was exactly what all my ex’s looked like, to a degree anyway.

“Exactly but my god is he handsome” I grinned at her and she smiled back.

“What about his personality? I really don’t want you getting hurt in this, I know both you and Spencer agreed on this but I don’t want you to lose Spencer over this”

I was silent for a moment contemplating what she said, I honestly didn’t know how I would lose Spencer over this but then I realised something, no matter what Spencer said about proving himself to win me back, would he really want to stick around if I was seeing something else?

I never voiced it to Emery or Sutton but they knew, they knew me well enough to know that I would struggle if I ever lost Spencer and not because I loved him but because I was so open with him about everything that if it ever came to a day where I lost him, I would break because it would be like losing my best friend, someone who would always protect me from the monsters that were linked with my past.

“I don’t want to lose Spencer either, it’s why I want to tell him myself and Damon knows that my relationship status is complicated, it’s enough that I’m single and allowed to date but still complicated”

“How did he react to that?”

I took a deep breath, this was what made everything with Damon so easy. Damon knew from the start that there was someone else, he didn’t care. He still wanted to spend time with me and we both agreed if it ever came to the part where we needed to have a serious conversation about us then we would and until then we were taking it one step at a time.

“Amazingly well, I told him straight up that it was complicated”

“And if he still asked for that first date then I approve, Jeremy was an asshole” I laughed as Sutton had a straight face but it falter and it wasn’t long until she joined me.

After that I began filling her in on Damon promising that if anything happened she would meet him, one day anyway.

Making New Friends

I'm so sorry I didn't post yesterday, I've been busy the last couple of days and it slipped my mind so I will post both today and tomorrow to make up for it.

My week is Boston was almost over and I was sad to leave and leave Lee behind, I did miss her when I was in the city and away from her but I had enjoyed my time out here and I was once again able to roam the city and take in the sights while Lee was in classes.

What surprised me about this trip was the friend I had made the first night we were out, one of Lee’s roommates, Ariana, had her cousin out visiting, from funnily enough New York as well, and we had spent the week keeping ourselves entertained.

Ariana’s cousin was named Damon and I couldn’t believe how well we got along, or maybe it was the fact we were both alone in a strange city together. Lee tried to ask what I thought of Damon but I would always brush it off claiming I wasn’t interested but I would have to be an idiot to recognise an incredibly good looking man when they were standing right in front of me.

Damon worked in PR at one of the bigger companies in New York and it happened to be the same one that Alex worked for and I was curious as to if the two knew each other but I didn’t question it, didn’t see the point unless our friendship continued once we both returned.

We were currently at a local bar having a couple of drinks on my last night in Boston and I was looking around to see if I could spot Sarah, I barely spent any time with her over the week since her schedule is so jam packed, she was constantly busy whether it was work or classes but instead I spotted Damon at the bar talking to some girl.

“Tell me again you aren’t interested in Damon” Lee whispered in my ear and I felt my face go red.

“I’m not”

“Bull, you so are. Would it be so wrong if something did happen? At least you both live in New York”

I shrugged at her before getting up and getting myself another drink, if Lee and Ariana were going to bug me all night about what I thought about Damon then I needed to be drunk for that conversation.

“What are you drinking?” I turned my head and found some complete stranger standing there and taking a good look at him I wouldn’t be surprised he was Lee’s age, I didn’t want a younger guy who was still in college, they’re too immature and it’s bad enough that sometimes when Alec, Alex and Spencer got together they were bad enough.

“I’m not interested” I spoke before turning back to get the bar tenders attention but I was being ignored for the blonde further down with her boobs out.

“What, I can’t buy a beautiful girl a drink?”

“Never said that, I said I’m not interested” I said sternly while narrowing my eyes at him

“Oh come on one drink won’t hurt you”

“I believe the lady said no” I looked over my shoulder at Damon and gave him a grateful smile, he walked over and placed himself in between me and the other guy.

I watched as the two said nothing but there was obviously something going on in their body language because eventually the stranger turned and left. Damon turned around and leaned against the bar giving me a smile.

“Thank you”

“It isn’t a problem but what are you drinking tonight?” he smirked at me, I rolled my eyes.

“Not you too”

“Oh come on, at least you know my name and what is wrong with buying a beautiful girl a drink” I felt my face go hot once again and I was just hoping it was the alcohol doing it to me

“Vodka cranberry” he grinned at me before flagging the bar tender down and requesting our drinks and I was annoyed at how easily he managed that.

“When is your flight home?”

“Tomorrow and yours?”

“The following day, we should catch up when we’re back in the city” Damon took a sip of his drink as he stepped closer to me so we could have a proper conversation

“Like a date?”

“Well preferably but not once have you answered my question about whether or not you are single” he replied and the smile slipped from my face. “Hey if you’re not single it’s fine, we can be friends and what is the harm in making new friends. I just thought if Lee and Ariana are friends chances are we might see more of each other and it would be less awkward if we hung out every now and in the city”

“No it’s fine, it’s extremely complicated but I am single”

He raised an eyebrow at me, “how complicated?”

I took a deep breathe, did I really want to scare him off this early or should I brush him off. “Complicated enough that one day either you or him will get hurt if something were to come out of this date”

He gave me one of his easy going smiles, “well then, if that is case how about we take things as they are and if something happens then we will worry about it but I’m also assuming that if anything does happen I will hear the whole story?”

“Maybe not the whole story but enough” I smirked at him while taking a sip and he shook his head before placing his hand on my waist to lead me back to the table where the rest of our group was sitting.

When we made back to table both Lee and Ariana looked between the two of us before grinning like Cheshire cats, I held in the groan I wanted to let out. I knew enough about Ariana to know just how similar her and Lee were and if Sarah wasn’t around those two would be best friends, I also knew that the two of them plus Sarah would now try and play match maker between Damon and myself.

I tried telling Lee I didn’t want her to get involved but she just turned around and said if I didn’t want anything with Damon I could lie and tell him I had a boyfriend but tonight I didn’t, I sucked it up and told him I was single giving the girls the green light to play whatever games they wanted, this wasn’t going to end well.