Monday 25 January 2016

Fun Filled Weekend



I had escaped the boring conversation Spencer’s younger sister Serena was having with their mother while Spencer had gone off with his dad and Alec. I had no idea where Alec’s parents or even where Spencer’s older brother Jake or sister Kirsten were.

I was standing in the backyard trying to get some air, I didn’t know what to think about the whole fake relationship with Spencer for the weekend it was starting to make me uncomfortable.

A bump on my legs pulled me out of my thoughts and when I turned around I spotted the cutest puppy jumping around, I knelt down and it jumped in my arms to try and lick my face.

“Aw aren’t you the cutest little thing, where did you come from?” I cooed at it while I patted its head trying to calm it down.

I heard a girlish giggle and when I looked up I found Spencer’s niece, Amelia, standing there laughing, I gave her a smile.

“Adrianna what are you doing here?”

“I’m here with Spencer, is this your puppy?”

“His name is Buddy.”

“He’s cute,” she grinned at me again before coming over and sitting beside me.

I haven’t seen Amelia in months and I couldn’t believe how much she has grown, every time she looked at Buddy or even told me a funny story that happened involving him she had the biggest smile on her face.

As much I was regretting the decision to come out here because of Serena and Spencer’s mother seeing Amelia like that put a smile on my face but it wasn’t until Buddy knocked her over and tried to lick her face that caused her to squeal that I laughed at the scene.

“Maybe it’s time you and Dri get a dog,” I looked up at the sound of Jake’s voice and found him and Spencer standing there enjoying the moment.

I stood up and made my way over to greet Jake, “oh I would love nothing more but I’m afraid a husky will be too big for Spencer’s apartment,” I grinned at Jake before turning and pouting at Spencer.

“Then I think it’s time we move so we can buy a house,” Spencer winked at me before wrapping an arm around my shoulder and kissing my head, I looked up and gave him a smile.

“Not just any house.”

“You’re right, it’s got to have a white picket fence,” my smile grew before I turned my gaze back to Amelia and Buddy.

“One would think you two didn’t break up,” I snapped my head around to look at Jake before I pulled away to look at both of them.

“You told him?”

Spencer shrugged in response, “had to start somewhere.”

“Well in that case, I’m going back to Buddy, he gives me more attention than you do.” I winked at him before heading back to where Amelia was but it wasn’t long until her mother called her over and when I turned around Spencer was gone leaving me alone with Jake.

“Why didn’t you go inside with everyone else?” I questioned as I stepped in beside him.

“You know he still loves you, that hasn’t changed.” I wasn’t surprised he ignored my question, in fact I was hoping he didn’t say what he did.

“I know, Alec keeps making comments my way.” I spoke softly while staring at the ground, as much as I wished Spencer told his family the truth I wish it didn’t happen while we were still here.

“Just don’t string him along forever, he will give up at eventually.” Jake spoke before he walked off and headed back inside leaving me to question what he said.

Spencer has been around this long, it made me wonder how long is too long. I knew Spencer hated that I wasn’t his again but he was understanding about the whole Damon and Nathan thing, and until I was over the pain I couldn’t even considering getting back with Spencer.

I couldn’t take it much longer and headed back inside hoping more than anything I can have a drink. It didn’t take me long to spot Kirsten and I stopped at the sight of her, why didn’t anyone tell me she was pregnant?

I rushed over to her and quickly hugged her, “look at you Kirsten, you’re glowing” I smiled at her.

“Thank you Dri, it’s good to see you again and I bet you are pleased to have Spencer back in the city with you.”

“You have no idea, now please tell me there is alcohol somewhere?” I whispered the last part but she just laughed at me.

“Oh no Dri, if I’m not allowed to drink neither are you.”

“But I’m not pregnant,” I pleaded with her but she just laughed again.

“Come on, I think lunch is almost ready and I still have to see my baby brother.”

“He’s not that special, I can’t believe how big Amelia has gotten though.” Kirsten laughed at my comment about Spencer but the smile on her face at the mention of Amelia was enough for me to realise she was incredibly excited about finally being a mother.

“I know right? Why did Jake have to move to Dallas?”

“No clue, what about you, are you and Aiden enjoying Miami?”

As I slowly walked through the house towards the dining room Kirsten was filling me in on how her life has been in Miami with Aiden since I haven’t seen them since her wedding last year.

People always found it weird that Kirsten married at a much older age than compared to Jake but only close friends and family knew the truth. Kirsten first fiancé had been killed in a car crash, in fact it was us talking about losing people in car crashes was what allowed Kirsten to open up to me and be accepting of me in the first place.

Spencer wasn’t one to go out and visit his family regularly, him and his dad got along and usually they would catch up for dinner when his dad came into the city or Spencer would go out and visit him and the two of them would go out golfing.

When Spencer was younger he didn’t really get along with Kirsten but Spencer said college changed her, she mellowed out and wasn’t as demanding and he wished that happened with Serena but it hasn’t yet.

Their mother was demanding, always demanding that they show nothing but out most respect for their family name. They aren’t allowed to bring any shame to the family by their actions and growing up they had very high standards to live up to, not all of which they were able to making their childhood and adolescents sometimes a different time but if it wasn’t for their father it would have been a lot harder.

“Kirsten look at you, you’re huge,” I heard Spencer’s voice and it wasn’t long until Kirsten narrowed her eyes at him and hit him causing me to laugh.

“Don’t be mean Spencer, you’re meant to compliment pregnant women because chances are they already feel like crap and don’t need you to tell them how huge they are.”

“Don’t ever get rid of her Spencer, she will keep you in line and I’m glad you’re home,” Kirsten gave him a hug and I couldn’t help but notice the look he gave me when he replied.

“I don’t plan on it,” Kirsten gave me a smile before leaving the two of us alone.

“Please tell me you found me alcohol?” I pouted at him but all he did was smile.

“Of course but if anyone asks it’s just orange juice.”

“Promise,” I grinned at him as I took a sip of it

“Thank you again for doing this for me,” he wrapped an arm around me before pulling me close and softly kissing my head. I thought it was weird because none of his family were around to watch the scene but I let it go figuring we were both in for a long weekend with his family.

Monday 18 January 2016

Favours



I was sitting on the couch staring at the ceiling when I heard the apartment door open, I didn’t even have a guess as to who would be there since so many of my friends have keys and they have all been checking up on me more regularly since the attack.

It had been a couple of weeks since I woke up in the hospital and I was able to return to work a couple of days ago, I still hadn’t remembered what happened with Nathan and Harvey was doing everything in his power to make sure Nathan couldn’t come near me ever again and I was grateful for his help.

When a stunning bouquet of flowers appeared in my vision I instantly knew it was Spencer checking up on me today, I sat up and looked at him hoping he would believe the small smile on my face.

“Thanks, what are you doing here?” I grabbed the flowers from him to take a good look at them.

It was almost a week after I was released from the hospital that I didn’t feel as paranoid and I felt I could handle being alone again. When I told Spencer this he decided to move back to Alec’s, at first I was hurt but then I realised maybe it was harder on him constantly being around me.

“Checking on you, did you go to work today?” I rolled my eyes at his comment, it was almost like he’s spent too much time with Emery and Sutton.

“Of course, don’t be stupid. You sound like Emery and Sutton, they asked the same question when we broke up.”

“Just making sure, why were you staring at the ceiling?”

“Why not?” I shrugged my shoulders and leaned forward to place the flowers on the table. “Why are you home from work early?”

“Finished early, everything’s still in transition for me coming back to work and my full load isn’t available while I’m casually checking on the branch in London,” he shrugged like it was no big deal.

“That’s fair, I heard back from that apartment I checked out. Someone else got it.” I was in love with the apartment I checked out a couple of days ago, it was a little bit bigger than my one but smaller than Spencer’s.

“I’m sorry, I’m sure you will find something eventually and it’s not like you are getting kicked out here.”

“I know, I just feel like a fresh start is what I need right now,” I looked over at him and I could tell he was overthinking something.

We were both silent for a moment and I looked back at the flowers sitting on the table, Spencer always had the ability of finding the brightest, prettiest flowers of all time. I absolutely loved orchids but I always felt it was strange to spend so much money on flowers. I told Spencer early on in our relationship that sometimes the brightest flowers would make me melt and he didn’t have to spend a fortune on them because I knew after a couple of days they would just wilt and die anyway.

“There’s another reason why I came home early, I need a favour.”

I turned and looked at him with a smirk, he looked a little like he was about to plead with me. “Ah hence the flowers?”

“You got me, Alec and I have to head home for the weekend but I never got around to telling my family we broke up…” I looked at him with a raised eyebrow. “I know, it was a stupid move but you know what they’re like, they would have been like if it was meant to be we would have made it through me being in London, I just thought it would be easier and now I don’t feel like telling them the truth because it’ll just cause issues. I know I have to tell them but maybe after this weekend?”

“Spence…”

“I know and I’m sorry, I don’t want to put you in this situation and I know you don’t exactly like my family…”

“No I have no problem with your dad or older siblings, it’s your mum and younger sister.”

“Please Dri, I’ll be your friend,” he pleaded me and I rolled my eyes.

We had been getting along a lot better since that first night of me being back here, in fact after that first night we decided it would be better to not share the same bed and it was a couple of days later that he moved back in with Alec.

There were moments where I would panic and hate the fact that I was alone and vulnerable but I needed to get over my fears and my need to always rely on Spencer. A couple of times I’ve called the girls and they’ve instantly come over no questions asked and they were able to ease my concerns about being alone.

“Fine, I need to get out anyway,” I agreed and he looked so happy at the thought

“Thank you so much, it means a lot to me.”

“You owe me Spencer.” I spoke softly as I leaned against him.

Saturday came and even though I agreed to do this for Spencer and even get out of the house I was regretting my decision, I knew if I really wanted out of the house for a weekend Spencer would have let me spend it in the Hamptons, hell if I begged hard enough he would have lied to everyone and tell them he didn’t know where I was but instead I agreed to spend it with Spencer’s family.

“Ready for our day filled with fun Dri,” Alec was turned around in the front seat to face me.

We were currently in Spencer’s car heading out to where his parents lived now, when him and his siblings were younger both his and Alec’s families lived in the city but after they were all in college they moved out to the suburbs to live off their fortunes, every now and then Spencer’s dad would come into the city and check on a various number of things or his mother would come in for shopping but most of the time they stayed out of the city.

“I’m regretting this decision, Spencer you owe me big.” I narrowed my eyes even though Spencer couldn’t see me but Alec could and he gave me a sympathetic look before turning around and looking out the front window.

“Maybe I should have found a fake girlfriend to get my mum off my plate.”

“Maybe you should stop sleeping around so much first Alec” I spoke in a sugary sweet tone and he when he looked at me I flashed him a smile.

“How about I stop sleeping around when you agree to take Spencer back?” he questioned and my faced dropped.

“Alec don’t,” Spencer warned him and he turned back around. “Sorry.” he muttered but I didn’t know who it was directed at. I caught Spencer’s eye in the rear view mirror and there was something written on his face but he didn’t look at me long enough to work it out.

The rest of the drive I ignored Alec and Spencer’s conversation, I didn’t know what to think of Alec’s comment. I knew Spencer still loved me, it was something he said when I woke up in the hospital but we hadn’t spoken about us or any potential relationship and all of that aside I didn’t know what my feelings towards Spencer were, everything was so confusing at the moment.

We finally made it to the house and Alec quickly jumped out of the car before heading inside while I took my time getting out, I didn’t say anything to Spencer but he grabbed my arm to stop me.

“Hey I’m sorry about what Alec said Dri, I didn’t think he would say something like that.”

“It’s fine, it’s partially my own fault. He thinks I’ve been leading you on and I’m at fault here.”

“Dri you know that’s not true, if I really thought you were leading me on why would I stick around? Wouldn’t I leave you alone?”

“Maybe you’re a sucker for punishment,” I smirked at him and he shook his head.

“Maybe I am, why else would I keep you around for this long?” I knew by his tone that he was joking but I was still a little unsure about Alec’s comment and those two were best friends, surely Spencer would have said something to him. “Come on you ready for my family?”

I nodded and linked my fingers with his knowing this was a part of the charade but I couldn’t help but feel the heat coming from his hand as soon as I grabbed it, I gave him a smile and followed him inside.

Monday 11 January 2016

I Feel Like The Biggest Bitch



When I woke in the middle of the night I wasn’t at all surprised to see Spencer lying next to me sound asleep. Most people would consider this weird, to be sharing a bed with your ex-boyfriend but me, well actually yes I do find it weird as well, although considering what happened between us I feel oddly safe with Spencer around.

I quietly snuck out of the bedroom and headed towards the kitchen in hopes of finding some food since I had slept through dinner, I was thrilled to find some of my favourite pizza in the fridge.

If I was being honest, I know I rely too heavily on Spencer considering we aren’t dating anymore but it’s hard to change your ways, even harder knowing it was out of control as to why we had the distance put between us.

Him admitting that he still loved me made me realise that nothing had changed for him and I knew I had to work out how I felt, I also knew that having him constantly around like this isn’t going to be good for him while I’m working it out.

A noise startled me and I jumped around ignoring the pain.

“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to startle you,” Spencer mumbled in the middle of a yawn but I just frowned at him before turning back to my laptop.

“What are you doing awake?” I questioned when he sat down beside me on the couch realising he wasn’t going back to sleep.

“I could ask you the same thing.”

“Yes well I’ve been asleep for a lot longer then you.”

“That is also true, why are you looking at apartments?” I looked over at him, if it was anyone else I probably would have hidden my laptop but then he would have known I was hiding something from him.

“I can’t stay here anymore, too many memories, Nathan knows I live here. I just want a fresh start somewhere, I don’t even want my old apartment anymore.”

“Too many memories huh?” I looked over at Spencer and I hated that he was a little hurt.

“You know I didn’t mean it like that, it’s just everything as a whole, good and bad. You can’t tell me you exactly want to keep living here knowing I had a boyfriend in here?”

I knew Spencer would have had to have an issue staying here knowing I had to have been here at one point with Damon, hell I was pretty sure Spencer knew I had Damon in the Hamptons but that was a different conversation for a different day.

“Did you love him?” Spencer’s question completely shocked me but out of all this that was the one thing I knew for sure.

“No and I don’t even know if I believe him when he said he loved me.”

“Do you believe me when I say I love you?” I nodded while turning my attention back to the laptop, it was easier then looking at his face.

“Will I ever get another chance?” I didn’t know how to answer that.

“Are you moving back home?”

“I am, does that change anything?” I nodded at him because honestly it does, him moving back here will give us the chance to fix what was broken. “Okay, I’m going back to bed. Please don’t stay up all night.”

The only thing I knew for sure was that I was feeling safer having Spencer around, I knew that if he left I would be devastated but would he stick around long enough for me to work out what I still felt for him?


I spent a little bit longer searching for apartments marking the ones I wanted to check out when I was better before going back to bed and curling up beside Spencer.

Him wrapping an arm around my waist and pulling me close made me feel happy to have him back, I forgot how much I enjoyed these moments with him.

Thinking he was asleep, I let out a sigh of relief. “I’m glad you’re back Spence.”

“Me too Dri,” he replied sounding incredibly sleepy and for once all day, his response to something like this wasn’t awkward and I took it as a good sign.