Monday 26 October 2015

Crashing Down



I couldn’t believe it, the two of them sitting there acting all buddy buddy.

This made me question everything, question my whole relationship with Damon. Did he actually care about me or was I just this big loser to him? Did he know what happened between Nathan and I?

“Adrianna.” Nathan greeted me with a grin on his face and I felt sick to my stomach. There was a moment when I loved that boyish grin on him, but now I hated it. It made me sick to my stomach.

I ignored Nathan and looked at Damon. I desperately hoped that I was reading too much into everything and later on we would laugh about this but the look on his face told me all I needed to know.

I shook my head as I turned and left, hoping I could get away from the both of them. I wanted to head back home to talk this out with Emery and Sutton, but Damon had other ideas.

By the time I reached the street Damon had caught up to me and made a grab for my arm preventing me from leaving.

“Dri hear me out, please.” Damon pleaded but I just stared at him for a moment trying to work everything out.

“Why? So you can say you don’t know him? Obviously you do know him! Obviously you know why I don’t like him otherwise you wouldn’t have looked as shocked as you did when I spotted the two of you!” I yelled at him and then realised we were standing in the middle of the street with people walking. I took a step back to get some air.

I watched as Damon opened and closed his mouth a couple of times. It was then I knew I was right. Damon knew what had happened between Nathan and I, well more like Nathan’s side of the events. I just didn’t know how they knew each other.

“Dri, please.” was all he managed to get out in the end and by this stage Nathan had joined us and clapped Damon on the shoulder.

“Are you that pathetic that you had to get Damon to put himself in my life?” I questioned Nathan but all it did was cause him to smirk at me. I was a little scared about what was going on.

“I wouldn’t say pathetic, more like concerned. I don’t like you living in the city all by yourself without me there to protect you. Do you think Damon is the only person I’ve had inserted into your life?” It felt like everything stopped once Nathan started talking.

When I was younger I believed everything that came out of Nathan’s mouth, all the times he told me he wasn’t cheating, that he did love me, that he wanted what was best for me and as much as I hated admitting this, that Emery and Sutton were bad influences on me.

There was a moment where everything came crashing down and I no longer believed the things that came out of his mouth but in this moment, the way he was looking at me and the way it sounded almost made me believe he was telling the truth.

“I don’t believe you.” I finally hissed out and Nathan shook his head.

“Adrianna, just talk to Spencer. Come on Damon we need to go.” Nathan gave Damon a slight shove towards the line of cars, leaving me standing there on the side of the street completely shocked. I didn’t know what to think or believe.

My mind flashed back to the first time I saw Spencer truly mad. It was actually pretty terrifying. It made me question his personality and wonder if what I was seeing was truly him. Up until that moment things had been sweet, caring and perfect but at that moment I was terrified.

I can’t even remember what caused Spencer to snap, all I know was that I wasn’t at fault but I what I do remember was questioning if that was truly him or if what I had seen up until that point was actually Spencer, because his family didn’t seem surprised by his outburst.

Was Nathan right? Did he place Spencer in my life to get closer to me? Is that why I wondered why Spencer’s anger didn’t seem to suit the person I had gotten to know before that point in time?

All I knew was that I needed to go home and talk to Emery and Sutton. I needed to ask Spencer about this and I definitely needed to talk to Lee about the conversation I had earlier with my mother.

Tuesday 20 October 2015

Going Home



I hated that I was doing this, I hated that I had to do it alone and I hated that I had no choice in the matter.

I checked my phone and re-read the messages of support from my friends.

Sutton: I don’t know why you didn’t ask me to come with you. I could have just seen my family and been there the moment you needed me.

Emery: I will get in a taxi and jump on a train if you tell me to. I will drop everything to be there with you Dri. I don’t know why you are forcing all of us to let you do this alone.

They went on like that. Alec told me he would get Spencer to get on a plane if it’s what I wanted but I couldn’t do that, not with Damon in the picture. Hell, I hadn’t even told Damon what I was doing. He had gone out to visit his family in Boston, not even giving me the chance to let him know about this last minute change of plans.

I put my phone on silent knowing the constant ringing would just make things worse. Hell, me hiding out here was probably making things worse anyway.

I took a deep breath before opening the car door and heading inside to see what was so important my mother demanded I come out here immediately. If it weren’t for the fact that she threatened Lee, I wouldn’t even be here.

“Adrianna, I’m so glad you could make it,” my mother said as soon as I walked in through the front door. I wanted to snap at her but I couldn’t.

“Of course mother. You said it was important. What was so important it couldn’t wait until I had some more free time?” I asked, but all she did was shake her head before heading towards the kitchen.

I wasn’t at all surprised to find what I did when I entered the kitchen, empty alcohol bottles littering the bench. I also wasn’t surprised to find my mother making herself another drink.

My mother was a very social drinker when I was younger, but she became an alcoholic after my father died. Sometimes, she had to drive towns over because the local owner wouldn’t supply her anymore.

“What am I doing out here?” I asked as I took a seat at the breakfast bar, hoping she would finally speak.

“You know your sister won’t visit me, I can barely get her to answer the phone. You should tell her she needs to visit her family more often.”

“She’s focusing on school, she doesn’t need us bothering her every day. Don’t you want her to become a surgeon?”

My mother finally looked up at me and something flashed through her eyes. She was being weird. It wasn’t her usual ‘I’m drunk look at me’ weirdness, it was different. She wasn’t yelling or screaming at me or demanding to know why I wasn’t giving Nathan yet another chance. She also wasn’t talking about how bad of an option Spencer is for a future husband.

“I really wish your sister was here for this but Adrianna we really need to talk. Please hear me out,” my mother pleaded with me and it was something she had never done before. She usually just demanded things.

Two hours later and I couldn’t believe I found myself standing here of all places. I couldn’t even believe what my mother had told me. I don’t know if I want to believe it or if it was just one of her lies to try and win us back.

I took a deep breath in hopes of pushing back the tears before looking out on the intersection that had killed my father and put me back in the hospital just after leaving it hours beforehand.

Ever since that day, I always hated coming through this intersection because it reminded me of being mad at my father for doing what he thought was best, doing what started the process to get Nathan out of my life. Most of all, I hated how it reminded me that the last conversation I had with my father involved me being mad at him and there was no way to change it.

I couldn’t take it any longer, so I eventually gave up and began wandering up and down Main Street in hopes of avoiding going home and dealing with my mother.

It wasn’t until I stepped into the small but always busy coffee shop in hopes of getting some caffeine and warming up that I was shocked.

Damon was sitting in there with Nathan, the last person in the world I would think he was friends with and they were laughing like they knew each other. When they noticed me a look of pure disbelief appeared on their faces.

Monday 12 October 2015

Apologies

For all of you Anonymous readers out there, yes I know my writing skills aren't the best and I don't understand why you care? I'm not being paid for this I do this all in my free time around my hectic schedule because I want too. If you don't want to read because you find it too hard to follow or understand, fine don't read it see if I care. I don't know any of you.

As for Dri finding out about Damon, I'm sorry for the drag with the story line I didn't it came across that way but the next post will have everything come into the light

Concerning Actions (Emery's POV)



“There must be must be something we can do Emery?” I groaned at Sutton’s statement, it was currently just the two of us having lunch since Dri cancelled on us. Sutton had been going on about Damon for about 10 minutes now and she was getting on my last nerve.

“What would you like us to do? What happened to you all for supporting Dri and her relationship with Damon, what happened for you to change sides?” I spoke and watched her carefully and noticed all her usual tell tail signs of being anxious/unsure/nervous basically everything we were probably both feeling right now about Dri and her new relationship.

It was true, up until our weekend in the Hamptons Sutton fully supported Dri in her relationship with Damon, whereas me, well I had my concerns, most of which included what the hell was wrong with Damon to willingly be in a relationship as fucked as this one.

Yes I sucked it up and told Dri what she wanted to hear, mainly because I knew what would happen if I spoke up about what I thought. Damon seemed like a nice enough guy but Dri isn’t in the best shape to be in a relationship right now, especially because of Spencer.

I don’t know if Alec or Alex had gotten to Sutton but for all of Dri’s friends to have concerns when it comes to her new relationship there must be something wrong with it right? We don’t know if she just latched onto him because he was there and not a dick or if there is something none of us don’t know about.

“It’s just the way he handled the whole letter thing, he seemed to calm about it and about the fact that Dri is clearly hiding something from him, Alex would lose it if I was keeping something from him.”

“I know Sutton but what can we do, it’s like Nathan all over again. You and I both know what will happen if we try to convince Dri to end things with Damon or even talk to us about our concerns rationally”

I looked over at Sutton and she hung her head, we both hated the way Dri was treated in her relationship with Nathan and ever since we’ve tried incredibly hard to make sure it didn’t happen again.

Yes I may have set Dri and Spencer up but only after knowing Spencer long enough to know he will treat her right if something did come out of their relationship, and he has, enough to make us wish he was back here for her and Damon wasn’t in the picture because none of us were happy with it and we didn’t know how to tell her without pushing her away.

“So we just have to sit back and watch everything explode in our faces again?” even without the tone in Sutton’s voice I knew she wouldn’t be happy with this idea.

We tried so hard to try and make Dri see reason when it came to Nathan, we knew he was manipulating her but she wouldn’t see it, even after she saw it and we convinced her to end things he had somehow convinced her she did the wrong thing and they got back together for a couple of weeks before everything blew up in our faces.

The final way we could make Dri see reason and finally end things with Nathan and not willingly go back to him, she needed to see who he really was and the only way we could do that was to show her where he was going behind her back but we didn’t expect to find him having sex with one of our closest friends. Both Sutton and I were so mad at ourselves for how badly Dri was hurt after everything, it didn’t matter how glad we were things were finally done between the two of them, we couldn’t believe we hurt our best friend like that.

“Emery I don’t like this”

“I know Sutton I don’t either but what can we do, we have no proof that Damon is that bad of a guy except a bad feeling. Both us and the guys will keep an eye on Dri and Alex works with the guy, surely Alex will notice if something is up with Damon”

“You’re right, I just hate this”

“You’re not the only one, Alec is furious about the whole thing” Sutton nodded in agreement as we both stood up leaving cash on the table for our lunch and leaving the restaurant.

We both knew how much Dri meant to Alec, he treated her like the sister he never had and it didn’t matter if Spencer was his best friend he would still look out for Dri and right now Damon was the last person he trusted.